Insanity of Motherhood

Motherhood, marriage, and midlife.

The Reason


Several years ago I applied for a job.  The job was to become a Preschool Director.  I applied for the job after a 15 year absence from the early childhood education field.  I got down to the final two for the interview choice.  I wasn’t selected.

The rejection was difficult.  In all honesty if I had been offered the job I don’t think I would have accepted it.   The timing was wrong.  The responsibly was overwhelming.  When I tried to see how I could balance such a demanding position and manage my family I couldn’t see a way to make it work.

But that was a few years ago.  My little son is in school full-time.  He’s doing well.  The older boys are much more independent.  They are also helpful.  Old Boy will be getting his driving license soon (gulp) and will be able to help out with driving.  The thought of working and caring for a family two years ago didn’t seem possible, but things are different.  I am different.  I’m ready to think about heading back to work.

A friend of mine informed me the person who accepted the Preschool Director position is quitting.  She hopes to pursue a different career.  The information was surprising. The person selected has not been in the job long.  I began to wonder what would have happened if I had been selected for the job.  Would I have lasted or would the responsiblity have been too great?

This week I have been thinking a lot about the quote, “Things happen for a reason.”  When I wasn’t offered the job years ago I had no idea the lessons I would learn from the rejection.  I could only dwell on how I was not selected.  Now, many months later, I understand why I wasn’t selected.

If I had been chosen for the job years ago I would have reached outside my comfort zone and try new things.  I would haven’t attended more early childhood training or read new books about on the topic.  I wouldn’t have taken a friend’s advice to start a blog.  I wouldn’t be writing to you right now.  I wouldn’t have discovered a creative side to me I didn’t know existed.

After hearing the news of the selected person leaving the job I sent my friend a message.

Hi Betty (fake name).  Your news today left me a bit speechless.  If I had gotten the job years ago I would have never started my blog or writing.  Funny how life works out sometimes.

She wrote back with this response.

I’m happy you are writing your blog.  It is fabulous! Debbie (fake name) complimented me on an outfit a few weeks ago & I babbled on about how I’m trying to be a more hip mom & dress better.  She told me you wrote a hilarious entry on this topic.  You have teachers referring to your blog….how awesome is that?

Sometimes it takes a while to discover and answer to why something difficult has happened.  But you know what?  If you to do a little soul-searching, takes some risks, evaluate and let time’ll discover the reason.

Author: insanityofmotherhood

Mom of three boys, wife, educator, and all around nice gal in the middle of a midlife something. It's not a crisis, but it's something…

7 thoughts on “The Reason

  1. Nice circle of life story. Maybe, you should reapply for the job? It sounds like the timing is right. Just don’t forget the blog.

  2. Is this “a sign”? I bet you’re thinking about reapplying. I was in a similar situation a few years ago, but I’m not sure if today I would reapply for that job. It was 6 years ago and so many things changed. You’re right: I discovered the reason why certain things didn’t work out for me. And so did you. Whatever you will decide: please keep on blogging! 😉

    • I do wonder what it all means in the big picture, but I have not considered to reapply for the job. Simliar work yes, but that particular position and I would not be a good fit now. I will keep my eyes open for other things. Thanks for reading my blog. I will do my best to keep it going. 🙂

  3. Yes we will discover the reason.. EVERY TIME..If we look for it, It is only when we bury our heads in the sand of low self-esteem and rejection, refuse to stand and self-assess and take another step and look at things from a different angle that we find that wonderful answer! Great Post Blessings to you!

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